I’ve got 4 months to do whatever I want to until I back to uni.
Had so many plans for the holidays during the semester, but now I can’t really think of any. My mind’s just blank.
I was so excited about the holidays but now I’m just bored. Feel like there’s no purpose… and I’m becoming lazy again.
I had plans for my birthday in January, but I ceebs looking for a holiday house now… worried that everything will book out so I gotta start looking for some place but I just ceebs these days.
All I do is work work work. It’s actually not too bad because I’m earning quite a lot of money and since I do nothing else other than work, I’m saving up pretty fast. It feels good to have a lot of money but I know it’s all gonna disappear once I start splurging again.
I kinda wanna do some art and create a portfolio over the summer break so I feel like I’ve accomplished something over the holidays. I wanna be prepared for my future but I still don’t know what’s to come. I’m worried that even media won’t get anywhere. It suddenly feels so competitive and I hate competition. I probably have to deal with at one stage though, so I should start training myself to cope…
I want to an internship at some media company over the break as well, but I think it’ll be difficult coz I’ve got no experience and I don’t even know where to look first.
Everything just swishes across my mind and then I forget.
I don’t know why, but I feel so forgetful these days. I sometimes wonder if it’s serious because I seem to be really forgetful compared to other people. But I hope I’m just exaggerating… Guess it’s just a lack of concentration.. lol
Dunno why but haven’t posted on tumblr for a while and I just feel like rambling today. Just about anything…
Think I need to start making new friends coz I’m getting way too lonely these days and I’m starting to forget how to socialise and get along with new people.
Everything just feels so difficult at the moment. Got so many dreams and desires that I can’t fulfill right now and I hate imagining unreal things now. I want everything to happen in real time. like right now.
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Four Month Holidays